Yes it is true. I am still alive. More or less cuz i feel like really fucked up and I am starving
to dead. I mean I am hungry but i just can not hold any food or even smell it cuz as soon
as I smell meat or bread or whatever it just creeps up my back and I go *puke* food yuk
who would want to eat that shit...

I has been like 2-3 days since i ate something. Man I keep on trying but just can not keep
any stuff down my throat. Ah and did I say that i have slept about 6 hours in 2 days? Naw
it so is not even worth being mentioned.

So what does this condition in my mind tell me? Yup damn right I gotta change something.
Get away from all the shit and just do something to set my mind free...naw not smoking
some illegal stuff or worse. Just getting away to some place nice.

So after checking my bank account I figured going away is not an option so I'll just be stuck
to Whiskey and Coke for now...takes me away too but in another way.

Michael you fucking fool give me a call someday, yes, will you?

"Well the pills I got they ask me lets go out for a while and the knives up in the kitchen
are all too dull to smile, yeah and the sun it tries to warn me, boy those wings are made of wax while the things I do to kill me they just tell me to relax..."