Starting at the time I got home to my parents house. I felt unable to normally talk to anyone cuz of the creeping cold and hot feelings that I had. Must be because of the fact that I am not smoking much lately, my body is just getting used to it but why, why, why, is mum always asking the same shit.
So far my body and my head other than that I had to wash two cars. Just drive to the gas station and buy a ticket but still, not the perfect thing for someone who is not smoking. Small passage ways n all of that stuff, slow driving and a bunch of other situations I am not comfortable with.
And as I gently parked my parents car in the washing thing, previously I washed my own, there was this little moment, where I forgot all about the sweating, the sticky t-.shirt, the family meal which as usual turned out to be a Son vs. Father show off, the fact that my cat is buried in my backyard...everything. Just because I looked up in the sky and saw this:
And I felt peaceful, and I felt sad but most of all I was pleased to find out that even in the back of a filthy gas station if you just look up sometimes, there it is.
12. Aug, 22:14
