I know it does not make any difference to write it down but still...

nothing goes right...nothing works and i am not sure why but fuck it i gotta get it going somehow otherwise i can just you know jump right of that fucking bridge...

with that said...back to learning n all that stuff...

...because I am in need of music that fits the weather and my mood...so we turn to help from Dave Matthews and his friends...thank you very much.


(maybe it is just the medicine talking...who gives a shit anyway?)

Well you said you wanted war, but nobody wants to fail the future
If you say it's too late, it's not too late - I want to wake up on the
Day I found you - I want to wrap my shaky arms around you
I want to find a decent way to tell you I need to spend some time alone
I want to take this in the wrong direction - I want to say this to my
Own reflection - I want to find a decent way to tell you I need to
Spend some time alone - right now, it was the words that you
Were gunning for - all I wanted was to let you know
Just wait a second, and I'll give you what you're waiting for,
Or make a promise and refuse to show that things fall apart
Well you said wanted more, but nobody wants to wait forever
If you say it's too late, it's not too late - I want to show you
All the things I promised - I want to give away the things I wont miss
I want to find a decent way to tell you I need to spend some time alone
I want to write down all the things you say - I want to have you
In my life today - I'm gonna shout it from the rooftops - cause im tired of being alone - back of the van
Not too late - don't have to wait - you want it all
Right now you know, everything that you said,
Just forget about it

(FareWell - War)

Don't forget we sent letters to ourselves without words
+
+
and it was just to remember those days that we spent in our heads...

Pahahahah...it is like a bad comparison but you know resolutions are like when you stop smoking again and again. Because let's face it, in your life you have about a million resolutions that you are just saying out and never even put a lot of effort into them, you just say it so you feel better...or you actually feel like you have done something by just saying it.

Right now I am trying to not only hang on but for the first time ever really do what I am saying. Funny thing as I am writing this an acoustic version of Dave Matthew's Gravedigger is playing. So much for the cheerios but fuck it, it is a great song and it is hard to day for me but only a song.

So if you see me around the next time, don't ask how it is going, I am still breathing so...funny thing, cigarette lit by Dave Matthews is playing now...so long

Cigarette lit
My plans to quit
And I know I can but I know I will forget it
Stuck here, I need something quick
Jus' to stop me thinking
Always loud, always in
Jus' come in to me

To make this quick, I do not feel old but I guess I actually am kinda old. I mean you got these dudes making millions and they are like fucking 23 or so. So i guess i should grow up more or should be grown up more by now...I don't know man...its like soul meets body but in a bad way...

So this year, same as last year...acting like I am not a year older. Don't get me wrong I do not give a flying rats ass bout how old I am...I just don't wanna fit in with the happy people celebration crowd...

oh oh oh a nd before I forget...there are some things today that could actually make my day, for real...

Cheers...

your Halloweenhead

I brought you peace within your broken heart
Our destiny was over before the start
This is the end
This story’s over for my heart
My funeral keeps both of us apart
Wasted time from the start
My believes are gone and so is my heart
So is my heart
So is my heart
My believes are gone and so is my heart

Everything is calm
Friends cry and so does my mum
Blood drips from the bed
And blood drips from my head

My dead body neatly lies in bed
Thoughts are gone and so is my breath
So is my breath
So is my breath

My believes are gone
How long have I been dead?
Dead in my bed
My body is gone
And so is my breath

(original writen by Zlepnik/Wurzer, music by M. Wurzer, rewrite R. Zlepnik)

I don't know

maybe its my constant feeling like I am burning, maybe it is just something my head does to me (which kinda like happens every 10 minutes), maybe it is cuz i am still looking for a job and shit but bottom line is i am thinking "what the fuck?" 24/7 and don't know why...

(oh ahhh i almost forgot to mention that this weird feeling or whatever mainly comes out in the music i listen to...which is like without a doubt a weird mix latley)

So seriously,

i was wondering, is there ever going to be another Ryan Adams...you know the feeling when you first hear a record by an artist you are not familiar with but you instantly know that you want to have every cd, live show, bootleg, dvd, single and also every other crappy thing that this very artist ever put onto record...i have had this twice, first with Ryan Adams and then with Mark Kozelek and of course the Red House Painters/Sun Kil Moon...

and while i was passing my days with good music and extensive listening i never ever got to that very point where a band or artist just you know...you can not stop reading the wikipedia article, reading about the Eps and Lps and collecting them all...

while i thought that thing may never happen again...it just did this week and it did with a bang because not only one band no but two bands have taken over my brain and addiction...

Okkervil River and Shearwater...well to be honest you could say it is only one band because Shearwater is formed by the two main songwriters from Okkervil River but still...

and to sum it up why...because if you record a piano and then play it backwards in one of your songs you are interesting...and that is what can be heared on Shearwaters new record "Rook"...so far so good, i hope i got it right and if not i could be wrong...

When an album is good but a bit overlong, can you improve it by expanding it to roughly three times its original length? That's the curious gambit behind Geffen's "Deluxe Edition" of Whiskeytown's 1997 major-label debut, Strangers Almanac; while the original release of the album clocked in at a bit under 52 minutes, this reissue has been expanded into a two-disc set that's nearly 148 minutes long. Strangers Almanac caught Whiskeytown in an awkward moment in their history; while they'd gained a far higher profile as a new major-label act and were pegged as rising stars, tensions within the band were already starting to fracture the lineup, and Ryan Adams, Phil Wandscher, and Caitlin Cary had to replace their rhythm section a mere two weeks before they began recording, with session musicians filling out the lineup. While Strangers Almanac's fallow stretches hamper its pacing, the best material ranks alongside Whiskeytown's finest moments, and the album sounds powerfully cohesive, with a real chemistry between Adams, Cary, and Wandscher that was absent from the group's posthumous swan song Pneumonia. However, this new version of the LP seems to reflect one of the guiding credos of Adams' solo career, namely that Quantity Is Quality. Disc one of the Deluxe Strangers Almanac features the original 13-song album along with a five-song radio broadcast from the fall of 1997, with the band meandering through a sloppy live set that does feature two otherwise unreleased songs and a few inspired moments, but sounds as if Adams had awakened from a deep sleep two minutes before air time. Disc two features two rare tunes that popped up on film soundtracks ("Wither, I'm a Flower" from Hope Floats and "Theme for a Trucker" from The End of Violence) along with 19 alternate takes and demos that have circulated among fans under the title "The Barn's on Fire." Most of the disc two material is the sort of stuff that gets bootlegged but not given an authorized release for a reason Γ?? they're covers and alternate versions (usually acoustic) that obsessive fans will dote on, but few if any objective listeners would peg as being as interesting as the group's authorized recordings. Sadly, this adequate but hardly compelling music has been included when some more interesting stuff didn't make the cut Γ?? the four-track promo EP In Your Wildest Dreams (where "Wither I'm a Flower" made its first appearance), and several compilation appearances and single sides (especially the group's potent version on Moon Mullican's "Bottom of the Glass" on the Bloodshot collection Straight Outta Boone County). Ultimately, this edition tends to dilute Strangers Almanac's strengths rather than reinforcing them, which is a shame, as its one of the best and least acknowledged albums in Ryan Adams' pantheon.

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Whiskeytown - Strangers Almanac
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Artist : Whiskeytown
Album : Strangers Almanac

Genre : Rock
Label : Geffen

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Tracklist:
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cd1

01 Inn Town 05:51
02 Excuse Me While I Break My Own Heart Tonight 03:16
03 Yesterday's News 02:50
04 16 Days 03:54
05 Everything I Do 04:32
06 Houses On The Hill 02:39
07 Turn Around 05:17
08 Dancing With The Women At The Bar 04:38
09 Waiting To Derail 03:55
10 Avenues 02:31
11 Losering 04:01
12 Somebody Remembers The Rose 02:30
13 Not Home Anymore 05:59
14 Houses On The Hill (Live) 03:43
15 Nurse With The Pills (Live) 04:41
16 I Don't Care What You Think About Me (Live) 03:19
17 Somebody Remembers The Rose (Live) 02:34
18 Turn Around (Live) 04:26

cd2

01 Indian Gown 04:46
02 16 Days (Acoustic) 03:13
03 Somebody Remembers The Rose (Acoustic) 02:45
04 Avenues (Acoustic) 03:35
05 Excuse Me While I Break My Own Heart Tonight (Acoustic) 02:43
06 Houses On The Hill (Early Version) 02:26
07 My Heart Is Broken 03:05
08 I Still Miss Someone (Acoustic) 02:24
09 Kiss & Make-Up 03:31
10 Barn's On Fire 01:43
11 Dancing With The Women At The Bar (Early Version) 04:28
12 Dreams 05:50
13 Breathe 04:08
14 Wither, I'm A Flower (From Hope Floats Soundtrack) 04:54
15 Luxury Liner 02:40
16 Theme For A Trucker (From The End Of Violence Soundtrack 04:29
17 Streets Of Sirens 03:45
18 Turn Around (Alternate Version) 04:03
19 10 Seconds 04:15
20 Ticket Time (Early Version) 03:54
21 The Rain Won't Help You When It's Over (Early Version) 04:34


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Release Notes:
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STRANGERS ALMANAC was Whiskeytown's penultimate album. The band
is still steeped in the sounds of country and Gram
Parsons-inspired country-rock here, but one can hear the music
moving toward the pop of their final effort PNEUMONIA. Everything
still centers around the voice and excellent songwriting of Ryan
Adams (who was still only 22 at the time of this album's release).

The song "16 Days," for example, with its breezy, open-road,
country vibe and the lovely interlocking harmonies between
Adams and violinist Caitlin Cary, was released as a single,
and rightfully so. There is also the beautiful, melancholic
weeper "Dancing With the Women at the Bar," and a
revisitiation of "Excuse Me While I Break My Own Heart
Tonight," which appeared on the band's debut. Adams's talent
shines so brightly here, in fact, that it is little wonder he
would soon be pursuing a solo career (the internal tensions
in the band would hasten its dissolution as well), but
STRANGERS ALMANAC captures this fine, short-lived,
alt-country band in full effect.

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-=AMG Review=- by Mark Deming