Lots of new music going on...

check out Rohans stuff here He will release his new record "Ask a stupid question" on the 19th of May so be sure to check it out.


Also more news on new Flashin Flames stuff can be found here I know the guys have been pretty busy with doing nothing but new stuff is coming...just keep up the hope.

Also Calexico played in Graz, A @ the Orpheum and i was there...it was an amazing concert which really got behind my expectations and to see Iron & Wine too. Great great night. (I will post the set list later)

Again a nice warm suggestion that I would like to put here...pleazzze guys if you read this head
over to the official Bishop Allen Homepage and check it out and if you feel like it order one (or even all) of their records.

They are doing this amazing and crazy thing of putting out an E.P. each month of this year...

They are amazing and they have mp3s up too...the April E.P. is now available (which has the
wonderful "Flight 180" on it)

So this girl i know send me a link to a site where you have to typ in your name to find out what it stands for...so i did that and it turns out like this:

RENE :
R is for Rare
E is for Earthy
N is for Nice
E is for Extreme

I just thought what a load of bullshit...still fun in a way though.

*if you feel like finding out what your name means go here and type in your name*

Want to cross but I don't think I can
it's too weak here even where I stand
come here darling let me see you, hold my hand
so we can mend your broken halo
all I want from you
all I want from you, is for you to
turn around, turn around
want to damage so I damaged it some
we use to have it all now I just got some
silent perfections mystery all easy to fall from your lips
all the while lies are told to me in shapeless secrets
all I want from you
all I want from you, is for you to
turn around, turn around
turn around, turn around
can't you turn around, can't you turn around,can't you turn around,
why can't you turn around
turn around, turn around, turn around

from Whiskeytowns Strangers Almanac

Yes it is true. I am still alive. More or less cuz i feel like really fucked up and I am starving
to dead. I mean I am hungry but i just can not hold any food or even smell it cuz as soon
as I smell meat or bread or whatever it just creeps up my back and I go *puke* food yuk
who would want to eat that shit...

I has been like 2-3 days since i ate something. Man I keep on trying but just can not keep
any stuff down my throat. Ah and did I say that i have slept about 6 hours in 2 days? Naw
it so is not even worth being mentioned.

So what does this condition in my mind tell me? Yup damn right I gotta change something.
Get away from all the shit and just do something to set my mind free...naw not smoking
some illegal stuff or worse. Just getting away to some place nice.

So after checking my bank account I figured going away is not an option so I'll just be stuck
to Whiskey and Coke for now...takes me away too but in another way.

Michael you fucking fool give me a call someday, yes, will you?

"Well the pills I got they ask me lets go out for a while and the knives up in the kitchen
are all too dull to smile, yeah and the sun it tries to warn me, boy those wings are made of wax while the things I do to kill me they just tell me to relax..."

Let's get fucked up and die...
I'm speaking figuratively, of course...
Like the last time that I committed suicide...social suicide...
Yeah, so I'm already dead on the inside,
But I can still pretend with my memories and photographs,
I have learned to love the lie...

So this is it, i thought as i came up the hill and saw the giant restaurant bar kind of thing were
hundreds of already drunk and wasted people ran around. What's next, oh yeah i need to find
my friends. Not an easy task but i found them after some time...they seemed to not even notice
me. Lack of respect? No to much alcohol but who am i to talk i mean i was pretty drunk myself
so... back to the giant restaurant. I never ever thought i have seen so many fucks in one place!
Good god i thought so many stupid assholes in one place. (i continued to think that the whole
night)

So while we all were talking and drinking suddenly everything around my went silent and a song
was playing in my head. I figured out it was "Crosses" by José González. This was weired cuz
the thought then came up in my head - Why on fucking earth do we all drink and get stuffed?
What the hell are we celebrating? Then suddenly it struck me. We celebrate Jesus being nailed
to the cross? No that was no the righ thing...ohh yes, then it got to me we celebrate Jesus rising
to the heavens above... What a nice thing, we all get fucking drunk with a bunch of people we
do not even know because Jesus has risen to the heavens above. What a load of shit, i thought to myself. That is no reason to drink and although i do not believe in the god we always hear about still there is no reason to drink and celebrate that.

The evening continued with low budget talking and even cheaper beer and other stuff that I do
not recall. After i got home, the exact time I do not recall I had the whole night passing by me
in my mind. Wow that really was a useless, senseless and absolutley worthless night of
drinking.

So the morning or day after was also fun. It was kind of like the opposit of being on a tropical isle
with nicewarm weather and wonderful food and nice people around. So the weather sucked,
I have no damn food at home (as usual) and I am all alone which is fine.

The overall resume is: I spent a lot of money for alcohol which i could have spent for CDs.
I have a cold now which i would not have if I stayed at home.
My head feels like steel workers are hammering on it.

Nevertheless I am going to that thing next year again !!!

I wish i could just take a picture of the sun, you know a real picture that would show everyone
how wonderful and awesome the sun is shining...after what seemed like a 3 year winter I know
that Iam really really easy distracted by just some sun but it is just awesome. Really strong
warm sun beam touching my skin...ahhhh


Oh by the way here is a comment on a song from Whiskeytown's Pneumonia - Paper Moon

Ryan Adams: "That's another one of my eternal love songs to someone. It's absolutely, completely
true. I'm not being facetious. I'm not being ironic. I'm not being coy. I listen to that song now, and
that's absolutely where I was at the time. I was cosmically in love. And this one to me is the
Star Wars of all my love songs. The light saber of all my love songs."

And another rant, sometimes everything in my life fucking bores me to hell and I do not know
why. I mean nothing I do is boring but I just feel so bored and fucked up and do not know at
times what the matter with me is...I really don't? Time to see a doctor to scan my brain (?),
I guess.

Here is a short edit to this post, this morning i checked the mail and to my wonderful
suprise i found the RnR Singer record by Mark Kozelek which i ordered a week ago...
the record is awesome and the fact that it was sent from Miami and arrived within a week
is just great. So then here is a question, a Cd from Miami - 7 days, my amazon order -5
weeks and still no see?!?

Kurt Donald Cobain
20th February 1967 - 5th April 1994



Check out The Cobain Memorial website for general info on Kurt, picture gallerys...